How Is It Possible I Care for These Kids So Much?

I drafted this post several days ago but I hesitated to post it.  I've shared much of what God has been doing in me but some things are a little more difficult to share than others.  Most of all, I have to search my heart and find out what my true motives are for sharing.

If you know me, you'd know I am not (or was not) the type of person who reaches out to people to build or establish relationships.  I hardly even keep up with friends.  I am not (or was not) the type of person who would just all of the sudden grow a love for someone whenever or wherever.  In fact, much of my married life, Rebecca has accused me of lacking empathy.  Sadly, I was even proud of this.  I can be calculating and cold.

So what happened?  Well, God happened.  He trully has been working in softening my heart for a while.  First, I have to say the simple messages I've been hearing at church for the last several months began to speak to me more than usual.  I don't know why.  Then I started meeting with a great group of guys who challenged me in the areas God was already working on.  Then God sparked an interest in me for the book "Kisses from Katie."  Just look at the title.  Does that look like the type of book any guy would want to read?  No way!  You'd be surprised to know that I went to the book lady in the house (Rebecca) and told here I wanted to read the book.  God used this book and placed that first seed in my heart for Uganda.

Then God created an opportunity for me to go to Uganda. Then he caused me to have this extraordinary love for kids that I have barely known.  I can't even begin to understand how it is possible to love James and Sarah as much as I do after having spent only a few days with them.

This isn't me.  This isn't what I do.  This is Him and this is what He does.  I have been transformed.  I have tasted what He has given me and I want more.  My desire for more of Him reminds me of Phillipians 3:10

I want to know Christ and the power of his resurrection and the fellowship of sharing in his sufferings, becoming like him in his death

For whatever reason, He chose to do this work in me.  If anything, what I've done is I have asked Him to use me and to certain extent, I have allowed Him to work in me.  The journey continues because I know He is not done with me.

Please continue praying for the kids in Uganda.  May God bless you richly.